Wednesday, May 21, 2008


one shot to my soul -


Um. Well. I just realized that my last few posts have all been a little... emo-ish? Heh. And all because I was pissed at the computer :/

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Haha anyway today was absolutely blazing hot. I think my brain melted. Or got fried. Literally. Which explains the conversation I held with Vanessa today. It had... Questionable Content. Yes, capital letters.

Vanessa claims it's R21, I think at most NC16, though. It'll be posted either tomorrow or the day after, depending on how fast Vanessa finishes typing it out. The conversation was three pages long, courtesy of my trashed-consent-forms-turned-rough-paper.

Yanyi was the only one who survived reading the entire three pages. Nobody else (ie. Jacy, Cassandra, Lokyin etc) could bear to go past the first page xD Too, uh, graphic.

It was about who's better in bed: Kaname or Zero. Kaname so obviously pwns all. And no, this isn't Kaname/Zero pairing we're talking about. It's (Kaname or Zero)/Yuuki :D

And we kinda co-wrote Kaname/Yuuki fic! Haha it's barely half a page long, but it has great potential. Though it's the most, uh, graphically perverse fic I've ever written. Though that's not saying much, seeing as how I've almost never written, well, porn.

It's definitely not the most graphic Vanessa has written. That's a feat.

Yes well. JIAFENG WAS BEING SICK when she read the fic :X Of all the weird things to say, she had to go, "Eh you can change it to Fate with it!" Cue confused look from me. She clarifies, "You know, with add-ons!" Gawd.

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I really shouldn't be blogging when I have 5 Literature essays to prepare, and an unseen prose to do. And plenty of backlog I really really need to catch up on. And Peiyun's birthday fic to write. Though I'm not writing today :D

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burned the sheets at 17:36

Sunday, May 11, 2008


seppuku,


10 points

1. YAGARI REMINDS ME OF SEIMEI. IT'S THE HAIR.
2. I have food poisoning = diarrhea T.T
3. I had a disgusting dream two nights ago. I dreamt that I had such thin skin it was almost translucent, and instead of blood under the skin, there were bits of food (I think it was food!) floating about. GROSS. Yellow and orange and green bits.
4. I started on fic for Peiyun.
5. It muchly grossed the both of us out
6. It's going to be an explicit piece o_O
7. I LOVE KANAME TO BITS
8. I LOVE KANAME TO BITS FOR RESPECTING YUKI'S WISHES
9. I LOVE KANAME TO BITS FOR "PROCLAIMING" HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH YUKI IN FRONT OF THE ENTIRE NIGHT CLASS.
10. That's it.

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burned the sheets at 12:26

Friday, May 9, 2008


stark.


Brenda really ought to be grateful to me for standing up for her, albeit 7 days too late haha xD

I mean, really. My rebuttal to her horrid tagboard spammer is 505 words long :D

9 May 08, 21:59

joy/"ashley": I really don't care who you are. Whoever you are, it doesn't matter to me. All I see is an extremely bitter, petty person who has nothing better to do with her pathetic life and has to resort to taking her frustrations over her failure of her life out on someone who leads an extremely fulfilling life and is supremely happy with whoever she's friends with. Unlike you, of course. Because you probably don't have friends. Then again, that's an assumption on my part, so I apologize if it's actually untrue. Because though the number may be in the minority, there are no doubt other people like you who thrive on insulting people. Unoriginal insults, at that.

And, point: the FBI/CID are meant for legitimate, state-sanctioned investigations. they are not assassins/ninjas. And in case you were unaware, both are US-based. In other words: not in Singapore.

But I forgive you for your obvious ignorance. I mean, I can understand how the uneducated feel. Go get a certified education; throw in a few counselling sessions (ie. >50 sessions) and I guarantee you will no longer harbour such cynical and narrow-minded thoughts.

And may I ask, how does Brenda act like a faux "holy Christian"? I’m not saying she's pure and all, but isn't that the point of becoming a Christian? To have God cleanse us of our sins. Heaven was created for us sinners. Jesus was sent down to earth and crucified to save sinners like us. So. Please, don't let Jesus' sacrifice go for naught by being an unrepentant fool.

If you don't mind, I’d like to ask, what exactly is wrong with lesbians? Are you so unconfident about your sexuality that you see the immense need to condemn people who are confident enough in their sexual orientation to actually admit it publicly? Are you homophobic? I’m not approving of homosexuality, but being able to admit to oneself the deviation in one's sexual orientation is a supremely difficult task that requires iron willpower and honesty. If you can't be brutally honest with yourself, does that not stand to mean that the probability of you lying to others and coming across as a hypocrite is even higher? Besides, being able to face the facts instead of recoiling into denial is the first step to salvation. if you can accept that there is something wrong with you, then you can work towards resolving that problem. Denial and lying is so not the way to go, please.

And for once, I agree with what you said: you ARE indeed childish. Your comments reek of biasness and the unrelenting temper tantrums of 3-year-olds. Not that I’m criticizing you, mind you. But I do recommend first getting into a decent school, then seeking out the counsellor there. Perhaps he/she might be able to recommend you a better, more-qualified and able professional who is able to help you with your evident self-esteem issues. I wish you all the best in your quest to becoming a better person (:

Have faith, dearie.

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And Eugene paid me the highest of compliments :D

"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
no i mean not flaming
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
verbal k.o.
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
o_O
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
haha that's the correct term
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
is that good or bad?
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
verbal ko
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
depends on who's dealing it right haha
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
the one who got k-o'ed is probably sadded
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:D
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then my mission is accomplished
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but i'm not done yet hahaha
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i'm still reading her tags first
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
whoa doing research
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
scary
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:D
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know thy enemy
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
wow sunzi bing fa
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
haha
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XD
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
hey don't underestimate the people of old okay!

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RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
WATCH ZETTAI KARESHI!
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
<3
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haha night!
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i mean, goodnight
RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
i thought you say night-to
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not Night in Zettai Kareshit
RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
-.-
RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
HAHAA
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OMG KARESHIT
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HAHHHAHAHHAHA
RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
WHAT
RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
HOW CAN YOU
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oops

I still cannot believe I said KareSHIT. GUH.

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I'm going to download VK Episode 5 now. Before I forget it's out already and Eugene has to ask me again -.-

And Oli's sick D: Poor thing. High fever.

Shall ask Quah to shift chem to morning. 9 perhaps? Not sure. If I can wake up T.T

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Have decided not to split this post into two :3

So. Today.

Was singularly uneventful. Something I'm grateful for.

Poor Dawn fell down and got badly injured, though. Blood :/

More importantly, she lost all her Aiba memorabilia! The agony DD:

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Cleared shed today. It was actually alright bringing the wood in and out and carrying the metal rack.

It was the rotting, termite-infested poles that disgusted the hell out of me. At first. I think I got termites on me too >:(

Then, it became normal to touch the rotten wood. Though the termites are still as gross as ever.

And I was impressed by Sharon Law (guider), at least I think that's her name. She bothered to help us lift and tie up the tarpaulin of the shed, and even helped to carry the rack. She also sat there enduring the blazing heat of the midday sun with us.

Though it doesn't seem like a monumental sacrifice that she has made, it was something I'd never seen any of our current guiders do. Expect maybe Ms Lee.

Honestly, can anyone imagine the skanky, old T.T and J.S doing this kind of hands on thing? They'd be fanning themselves; "Aiyoh, so hot!"

One would be afraid of breaking her newly French manicured nails. The other would be frying in her own fat.

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I will get Silver!

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Oh. Man. NOW my mother tells me Sunday lunch is cancelled. After I've told Quah and Oli I want to change time!

=.=

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And I may write fic for Peiyun :D About L and T. And maybe translate that to nanofate. No, Jiafeng, this is not a cue for you to get excited. It's NOT a promise.

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burned the sheets at 23:09

Saturday, May 3, 2008



STILL DOLL CREEPS ME OUT. ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M WATCHING VK AT ONE AM IN THE DARK.

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burned the sheets at 01:22

Thursday, May 1, 2008


crimson after crimson sways


Ow. Shit. A stupid ant just bit me.

I cut it in into two with my scissors >:D

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赤く赤く赤く揺れて
夢の夢の果てへ

もう何度も諦めては 押し殺すたび
行き場の無い感情が 目を覚ましてく
穢れの無い その微笑み 残酷なほど
遠い存在だと分かるよ

もう何度も諦めては 押し殺すたび
癒えない傷 心 蝕むだけなのに
闇の中に 今も宿る 思いを抑えきれない

赤く赤く赤く揺れて
夢の夢の果てへ

出会ってしまった 運命が廻りだす

誰も誰も知らない 秘密
堕ちて堕ちて堕ちて もう戻れない

罪を刻んでも きっと

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When will the full version of Futatsu no Kodou to Akai Tsumi come out? The OP one is so short ._.

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burned the sheets at 16:01

Tuesday, April 29, 2008


falling from the sky


Been blogging more and more. I wonder why. No, seriously.

Today was so... blah. It was just like wading through this thick mass of THING, and attempting to make sense of the uninteresting events happening all around me. Though sometimes I wonder if I even want to know what's going on at all -.-

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Can I say just how my absolute hate for plasticine has reached an altogether different strata? Physics SPA skill 3 today. It was utter HATE. Yellow plasticine got caught in my nails, and left a horrible plasticine-rubber smell lingering on my hands. Despite washing my hands with soap. THREE times.

BAH.

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Vanessa and I commenced our argument from yesterday, about the Kaname/Zero Seme-Uke issue? I firmly stand by what I said. Kaname = Seme. Jolene was in shock for about 20 seconds, when she heard the pairing we were discussing arguing about XD

AND VANESSA. ZERO/ICHIRU IS SO NO GO.

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Then cym talked to me. About my chinese ._.

Well, pardon me for not liking Chinese.

Okay, I mean, I really do want my Chinese to improve, contrary to what my attitude may seem. But yeah, well, I think I'm just not willing to put in the effort and time that studying Chinese will entail.

And fine, I admit, I'm not writing not-so-complimentary stuff about cym because he is a STALKER. LIKE QINGWEI. Who thinks he knows me so well just because he knows that I like Japanese guys -.-

Meh.

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And yes. Haha never thought I'd find another anime/manga fan in SN online (: Thanks to rage-chan :D

Hi Renyue!

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burned the sheets at 18:59

Monday, April 28, 2008



RAGE-CHAN IF YOU'RE READING THIS.

Haha I honestly didn't mean to scare you with that post. Or anyone else. Except Olivia XD

Yes yes. So are you from SN? Because the links that led me all over the place all belonged to SN people. BECAUSE THEY WERE ALL RANTING ABOUT SJ SLC :/

The consequences of which I must say I do not appreciate. Neither does Mrs Tian, for the record XD Because the Sec 3 level was a supremely noisy bunch today. Constantly cheering.

NOISE TRAVELS UPWARDS, PEOPLE :l

I'm so sorry, Rage-chan. Haha this wasn't meant to turn into a ranting post :3

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AND I POSTED CHAPTER 9 OF LU YESTERDAY. I think it was yesterday, if memory serves me right. Though that in itself is an utterly debatable topic :X

But Kidnapped seemed a little... filler-ish? And I feel bad, not updating more often.

I mean, what kind of loser writer churns out a lousy 10 chapters over a period of 2 freaking years?! Not to mention each chapter never got past 900 words.

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Somehow, I was suddenly reminded of Louisa's fantastic news this morning.

NADAL WON FEDERER IN MONTECARLO FINALS :DDDDD

WHOOTS.

But whyyyyy did Djokovic have to retire :/

Though I don't think I could've taken sides if it had been Djokovic vs. Nadal.

Federer was going to lose anyway.

TAKE THAT, LOUISA. FEDERER'S LOSING HIS TOUCH XDDDD

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Vanessa takes sick to a new height. And that's saying something pretty incredible, seeing as how she's the one who's always been setting the bar.

ZERO/KANAME. WTF.

I think I kind of threw up in my mouth when she told me her favourite pairing in VK. That is a hardcore yaoi fan.

And Hell, if that pairing were canon, Kaname would so be seme, please. Zero = Uke.

I will not comment anymore on this sick, sick topic.

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KARINA AND I ARE SOULMATES. WE BOTH AGREE AARON IS A HORRID JERK.

KILL AARON CAMPAIGN :DD

I mean, please. Aaron's this heartless, unfaithful, unfeeling jerk. He's in lust with Emee. And he still tries to manipulate her feelings for him, to coerce her into his bed.

And Ette. Omg the bitch.

AND SQUEE *_* ALEX.

SOOO HOT.

"From now on, the two of you stay the fuck away from Emee. Do you understand me? Just keep the fuck away from her, because if I ever find out that you tried speaking to her, I will run my car over your bodies and mutilate them. And that’s a promise.”

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burned the sheets at 22:15

Sunday, April 27, 2008


monumentally stupid things;


I HAVE SURVIVED THREE DAYS OF MOTIVATIONAL WORKSHOP :DDDDD

Hopefully it has motivated me. Doesn't say very much about it, though, not when I'm saying hopefully XD

But really. It was good.

It's hard to squeeze in twenty-four hours worth of workshop content into a single post, with two wrists that have Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. So I shall not.

Still, trust me that when I say good, I mean good.

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ALMOST. HAVE ALMOST FINISHED CLEARING MY ROOM. (Excluding the coffee table)

BUT YES. Amazing and unbelievable as it may seem. I have cleared my workstation and dressing table :D

TAKE THAT, RACHEL. EAT YOUR WORDS.

AND AND AND. I DIDN'T MENTION IT EARLIER, BUT MY COMPUTER'S BACK IN MY ROOM :DDD

Which kind of explains why there's a big an even bigger mess than usual to clear up XD

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OHYES. VK EPISODE THREE SUBS ARE OUT :D

I love <3

SPOILER ALERT:
ZERO BIT YUKI ZXCDVFBGNHMJ,K.L/'ASKDA;

AND KANAME RESCUED YUKI FROM A LEVEL E

Kaname, my hero *_*

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NEED TO WRITE TESTIMONIAL.

DO CHEMISTRY WORKSHEET: ATMOSPHERE

PHYSICS WORKSHEET NINE. Which was supposed to be done last week -.-

Well. We'll see.
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burned the sheets at 10:32

Friday, April 25, 2008


those tortured, melancholic souls


W-ELL.

I obviously have not finished Blood Lovers. Haven't touched it since that first day, in fact >:(

Let's not even mention Love, Unbidden -.-

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CHEER UP JOSHUA :D

MEGAN WILL COME AROUND HAHA. Really.

And a little piece of wisdom. Guys will never fully comprehend girls. So don't give yourself headaches trying. And just be yourself. She'll come around (:

It's the first real conversation that I've ever had with Joshua. I'm surprised he actually has this open, vulnerable side. First guy I've seen who's opened up like that. Would've thought guys'd be all about machismo and looking strong.

Pianists have more sensitive souls, indeed.

And though I refused to thank you earlier, thanks. NO, this isn't the cue for you to start being smug smugger than usual.

Because really. Your music calms me down, and gets me in the study mood (I hope). But no. I am not eternally grateful.

And you realize that I'm refuting before you even say anything?

Thanks to you, classical music now takes up 1.11 gigabytes of my computer harddisk space. Oh well. I have 30 gigabytes to spare, anyhow.

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I SURVIVED DAY TWO OF MOTIVATIONAL WORKSHOP.

We did profiling today.

Surprise, surprise.

I'm a right and left-brainer. WHYY. I really don't fit in either category, though.

And I'm a visual and auditory learner. Whether that bodes well or not, I have yet to come to a definite conclusion. Both, as almost anything does, have their pros and cons, I guess.

And on the DISC personality quadrant, I'm a choleric.

I feel so anal-retentive D: And nitpicky. Well. At least I know I'm somewhat like Atticus HAHA. Same in the public streets and at home. Provided that the test really does operate at a 98 percent accurate rate XD

TOMORROW. I HAVE TO BE UP AT 6AM. FOR DAY THREE OF WORKSHOP. GAHH.

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I WILL ATTEMPT TO CLEAR MY ROOM. SHALL SLEEP AT 12, LATEST.

YES, RACHEL TEO. I WILL OKAY. AND I WILL CLEAR MY ROOM BY SUNDAY AND PROVE YOU WRONG.

Oh, ye of little faith.

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WHY ISN'T VK EPISODE 3 OUT YET.

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burned the sheets at 23:20

Wednesday, April 23, 2008



I CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE FIND KANAME CREEPY. GRR.

KANAME IS HOT, PLEASE.

AND SDFGHJKL'L;; That picture of him licking blood <3 *_*

Okay, that sounds seriously wrong. But go look at it. Kuran Kaname gives new meaning to hawtness.

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And fic! Haha the longest I have ever written for a oneshot and it isn't even done yet! 909 words :D I feel accomplished. Though writing that last night might not have been the best idea. At the expense of my amath differentiation test ;_;

I really really want to finish Blood Lovers by tonight (I just thought of that name! :D), and maybe maybe maybe if I'm lucky then Love, Unbidden Chapter 9 by the end of this week. Though that is highly improbable, given how I'll be shuttling back and forth from school for 8am to 6pm school days :/

BAH. I THINK BLOOD LOVERS SUCKS.

There, now I've said it. I mean, it really does. I think the only reason Jiafeng said it was nice was 'cause she hasn't read the manga, and doesn't realize that it's the same sequence as the manga :X

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MEH.

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burned the sheets at 17:33

Monday, April 21, 2008


a spectacular crash and burn;


DID I MENTION I FINISHED READING VAMPIRE KNIGHT AT 2 AM THIS MORNING? NO? WELL I DID (: